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none of it fits in
i should just go, i should leave, escape
- i can't stand or contain this inside myself forever - i'll hold it all in and lie to myself for as long as i have to until the tide subsides
fuck though. fuck. where do i go, do i wait for them? do i let this play out?
- i have to.
i have to.
i have to watch how things work and fix myself in time. i don't enjoy it at all, i want to leave
i want to get out, go away. fly away. leave. exit.


i want my demons to stay.
i want my demons to stay.
but i want her as well.


i shouldn't be here...
i should never have been here.